Nothing beats having some time alone with a good book. Just having randoms thoughts and mixed feelings and thought i should blog it down.


Love my sister, both brothers to bits... And making peace now with some of my worries i had before...


Life is still good after all, if you want it to be.

What a terrible new year experience i had. Suppose to be a happy new year after a good meal with friends and with rounds of games and drinks. Didn't expected to woke up in the middle of the night and see that my boyfriend Wayne is having a fight with his own brother. With all my friends pulling them apart, and him saying all nonsense about getting revenge and not scared of death??


I feel very sick of it. After a long day of cooking and washing and i have to clean up after the fight and vomit until early morning.


What really turns me off is how scary it is he can be. He can really turn into another person when he drinks. I can't imagine if i marry him and i will face all his abusive treatment if he continues to drink in the future. Who knows whether he will hit me or our kids in the future.. I am feeling very scared and insecure. :(


I am feeling very lost about my future and about everything...

I was browsing through my older posts in year 2006. I'm quite surprised with what i have wrote, and wonder if am i still the same girl that i used to be.


To be honest, i feel that the girl then was caught in too much action & unnessary dramas. But then, if i didn't encountered all that bullshit in the past, i won't be what i am today.


The 'Diana' today is facing a totally different set of challenges and priorties are very much different now too.


Finally, i found someone that i can probably spend the rest of my life with. But don't know when the big day will come. Anticipating it, yet terrified of it. Terrified by the uncertainties in life, although i keep telling myself its all in your head. Think positive, think positive!


Career. Had a major change, from a comfortable pay check to now an amount that can only see me through my daily basic expenses. Well, i guess by now i should know better about what i want. An old uncle told me, "Work anywhere is the same." As long i am happy.

I'm worried. About my family. My parents, getting old and all sorts of nasty sickness is slowly creeping to them. They have no family planning, and retirement plans. Their only back up plans should be their children. But i wonder if majority of the people in Spore have the capabilites to feed their own family and support their parents at the same time. My brother, he is carving out his career path now and i am assisting him as well. Really hope things will go smoothly for us. My younger sis, finally found a full time job with good prospect. Just pray that she will have the preserverence for it. My youngest brother, worries me the most. He needs alot of attention, especially at his age now.


Trying to do my very best.

At Marina Bay Floating Plattform yesterday. My company sponsored for one of the event for NDP 2009. Was very rush doing the set up and everything in half an hour time. Managed to do it with the help with the nice army boys help. :) My sis Tina & her friend Emily helped out as service staffs.

It's my client Margaret's baby boy Sam christening. Came down that day to oversee the set up. I recieved an email from her yesterday...


Hi Diana,

The party on Saturday was wonderful - thanks to you and your staff for brillantly organising everything ! I have highly recommended you to people !

Best regards
Margaret


I feel that all efforts are worthwhile when customers are appreciative of what you have done for them. =)