-Diane_Delicacy-

Making peace

2010-01-22T16:33:00.002+08:00

Nothing beats having some time alone with a good book. Just having randoms thoughts and mixed feelings and thought i should blog it down.

Love my sister, both brothers to bits... And making peace now with some of my worries i had before...

Life is still good after all, if you want it to be.

Year 2010

2010-01-06T09:41:00.003+08:00

What a terrible new year experience i had. Suppose to be a happy new year after a good meal with friends and with rounds of games and drinks. Didn't expected to woke up in the middle of the night and see that my boyfriend Wayne is having a fight with his own brother. With all my friends pulling them apart, and him saying all nonsense about getting revenge and not scared of death??

I feel very sick of it. After a long day of cooking and washing and i have to clean up after the fight and vomit until early morning.

What really turns me off is how scary it is he can be. He can really turn into another person when he drinks. I can't imagine if i marry him and i will face all his abusive treatment if he continues to drink in the future. Who knows whether he will hit me or our kids in the future.. I am feeling very scared and insecure. :(

I am feeling very lost about my future and about everything...

Updates

2009-09-30T18:40:00.002+08:00

I was browsing through my older posts in year 2006. I'm quite surprised with what i have wrote, and wonder if am i still the same girl that i used to be.

To be honest, i feel that the girl then was caught in too much action & unnessary dramas. But then, if i didn't encountered all that bullshit in the past, i won't be what i am today.

The 'Diana' today is facing a totally different set of challenges and priorties are very much different now too.

Finally, i found someone that i can probably spend the rest of my life with. But don't know when the big day will come. Anticipating it, yet terrified of it. Terrified by the uncertainties in life, although i keep telling myself its all in your head. Think positive, think positive!

Career. Had a major change, from a comfortable pay check to now an amount that can only see me through my daily basic expenses. Well, i guess by now i should know better about what i want. An old uncle told me, "Work anywhere is the same." As long i am happy.

I'm worried. About my family. My parents, getting old and all sorts of nasty sickness is slowly creeping to them. They have no family planning, and retirement plans. Their only back up plans should be their children. But i wonder if majority of the people in Spore have the capabilites to feed their own family and support their parents at the same time. My brother, he is carving out his career path now and i am assisting him as well. Really hope things will go smoothly for us. My younger sis, finally found a full time job with good prospect. Just pray that she will have the preserverence for it. My youngest brother, worries me the most. He needs alot of attention, especially at his age now.

Trying to do my very best.

2009-09-17T01:48:00.003+08:00

'MaKeOveR'

DNV Seminar

2009-06-03T09:53:00.005+08:00

We catered for a regular client's Seminar Tea Reception for 60 Pax @ Changi area. All set up and decor done by me and with the help of my 2 efficient helpers. =) I love their lobby high ceiling and layout, creates a very elegant feel & ambience. Follow up with some pictures below.~

NDP Sponsorship 2009

2009-05-28T09:34:00.003+08:00

At Marina Bay Floating Plattform yesterday. My company sponsored for one of the event for NDP 2009. Was very rush doing the set up and everything in half an hour time. Managed to do it with the help with the nice army boys help. :) My sis Tina & her friend Emily helped out as service staffs.

Sam's Christening

2009-05-13T09:49:00.003+08:00

It's my client Margaret's baby boy Sam christening. Came down that day to oversee the set up. I recieved an email from her yesterday...

Hi Diana,

The party on Saturday was wonderful - thanks to you and your staff for brillantly organising everything ! I have highly recommended you to people !

Best regards
Margaret

I feel that all efforts are worthwhile when customers are appreciative of what you have done for them. =)

The Kid's Corner~

~ For the Big Ones ~

While on our way to the event site~

The cake i arranged for Margaret~ Lovely!

KTV Nite

2009-04-22T21:51:00.006+08:00

*** KTV Nitez ***

The dudes (left to right) Sky, Jimmy & Kitson.

Kitson, Charmaine posing with Shy Rong Wei.

Me & My Man. =)

Cool Lighting~

The Gang (left to right) Willy, Cassandra, Charmaine & Kitson.

~ Going out, as usual taking vain pic in car ~

Again posing before we go out!

Have to take more pics when we still looks good! Ha!

Erm, Snoopy with his 'special' helmet on. Lol..

I thot he looks kinda cute with his 'horns'. Hee.

Phoebe's Birthday

2009-03-28T21:08:00.005+08:00

Phoebe's Birthday @ Club Chevron

D 'Hot' Birthday Girl!

* With Lovely Jeanne~

ISS Opening

2009-03-26T23:32:00.003+08:00

Miss my bestie Jolyn & charming chef Andy~~

'D Babes'

" Pretty Rena, reminds me of my younger days.. :)"

*Jolyn's smile never fails to brighten my day!~~ =)

2009-03-13T18:44:00.001+08:00

^ HaPPy! =)

Zoo Trip

2009-03-01T04:46:00.007+08:00

< ZoO TRiP >

(Me, Darling Kazu, Leon, & Cute Little Josh)

*** Tata~~ Hope to visit the Zoo again 2 years later with Kazu. =)

Happy Birthday 2008

2008-12-26T13:43:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday To Me!

On the actual day of my birthday i went back home after work. Had a simple dinner with my family. As i grow older every year, i prefer my birthday to be hassle-free. Tired of the organizing and all, end up getting myself tired and could not really enjoy myeself.

Had a birthday gathering the weekend before with my gal friends at Siloso Beach Resort once again. Abit disappointed that the resort was packed and crowded with tourist, as its the festive season. Thank you all my friends who attended it and love the presents from you all.

(Pictures coming up soon.)

With my Dad :)

Me & my 2 younger brothers.

I called them my Army Troop.

Nicest Birthday Cake I Had.

Making a wish...

Love them all!

^Ham Ham Kazu^

Cute Sis & her Bf Peanut. Tata~~

To Beloved Zhiyuan

2008-12-03T09:17:00.004+08:00

We recently lost a dear friend the day before. I am not going to elaborate on the details here. It still seems unreal to me that he is juzt gone like that. It seems like yesterday that we just celebrate Wayne's birthday and having fun together. I wish i was more patient and attentive to him when he talked about his dreams and all in the past.

Although i was not a very close friend with him, but i am willing to just do anything and turn time back and hope he was still with us now. But he is now with us in all our hearts, everybody will miss him dearly. I hope he is in peace now and happy, no more worries.. He will remind us all to work hard and cherish our time with our loved ones.

Hope he is looking over us now and always be with us whenever we have our group outings. You will always be missed~~~

Wayne BBQ Birthday Bash

2008-11-06T23:16:00.010+08:00

~~ Wayne & Jimmy BBQ Birthday Bash ~~

* Everybody helping out for the BBQ *

* Seems like a big project, everybody gathers around*

*** THE GANG ***

*Willy & gf*

*Jimmy*

*Sky*

* Dwayne*

* Rongwei *

*** Left me & Teo doing BBQ~~

* End of Party...

Drunk & kissing his girlfriend.

Siloso Beach Resort Getaway

2008-11-04T22:27:00.005+08:00

3rd Nov 2008 - Siloso Beach Resort Retreat !!!

*** Entering of our Suite ***

*** Views from our room ***

*** Private Stairway up to Private Roof Top ***

*** Long Awaiting Jazucci ***

*** Sleepyhead still on bed, 7.30am preparing for buffet breakfast ***

*** Taking more pics of the room while waiting for him...

*** Odd looking tree beside the Jacuzzi...

* Taking a Pic outside Siloso Beach Resort.

*** Actual views from the Jacuzzi ***

*** Will come back soon !!! =D

Hello Kitty @ Chinese Garden

2008-09-10T12:02:00.011+08:00

Lantern Festival '08 @ Chinese Garden

(Hello Kitty Theme)

*** Hee... trying to blend in with them... ***

*** Hee.. Kazu look alike ***

*** It doesn't seems too happy to take pic with Kazu.. Keke.. ***

*** Pull your ear .. Hehe.. ***

*** What is he doing?? Moustach is real!! ***

*** Feeding Time!! ***

*** Good Bye !!! ^ _^ ***

No comments

2008-09-04T11:08:00.008+08:00

*** KTV Nite @ Chinatown Partyworld ***

*** Sky & lovely Yuki ***

*** Edwin Cool Tatoo ***

*** Guess who is d older brother?? ***

*** Me with Kitson. (he's d older one... )***

*** After awhile.. Things starts to get crazy.... ***

*** Dinner with Phoebe @ Ju-Ju Steamboat ^_^ ***

*** After that is Kitson Birthday @ St James ***

*** Went back home without my boyfriend in d end... ***

New friend Maria

2008-08-27T19:05:00.007+08:00

Meet my new friend 'Maria' from Poland. She's the niece of Uncle Richard.. (Wayne's Uncle). We were asked to bring her around as she's here with her parents for 3 weeks, to attend Uncle Richard wedding on 6th Sept '08. Already planned to meet up Phoebe to club that night so we brought her along. Maria is a really shy girl, 18 this year but she's extremely shy than i thought.

So i brought her to Plaza Singapura to walk around on last sat evening, she likes our bubble tea and went to arcade to play basketball. After that was dinner at Sakae Sushi, which i force her to try the salmon sashimi.. Haha..

Lucky for her that she manage to get into Dblo as the age requirement is 20 yrs old for ladies. Phoebe came and join us and we chilled for a while and decided to send her back. Don't think she really likes to club though..

My mind was fumbling with questions to ask her to keep her entertained.. Oh boy.. Guess it isn't that easy to be a tour guide after all.. :)

*** My New Lap Top***

Nothing powerful, but good enough for my basic needs. :)

Thanks darling for it! ^_^

Event at Yokogawa on 22nd Aug '08 (Roof Top)

* Staff's Appreciation Nite *

*** They have really very beautiful landscape up there and the staffs

do Yoga here sometimes.. ***

Recent Updates

2008-08-15T22:10:00.003+08:00

My HamBao at Marina Bay VIP Lounge for NDP Preview =)

After the event went to Rongwei Birthday at Bonkers...

Chilling out at the Loof...

7th Month Dinner at ISS-CDCS with Jolynn

Recent Pics

2008-08-04T15:55:00.002+08:00

Me & Baby Sis.. =D

My New Friend Vic. =)

With Cool Joe~~

Yippee!!!

More new friends! Wendy & April~~

Pics

2008-03-23T13:17:00.003+08:00

* Five Stars Tours Open House...

BBQ Seafood Dinner with Kazu's Cols @ Changi Village

Five Stars Tours Opening

2008-02-29T09:30:00.006+08:00

Five Stars Tours Grand Opening

*** 28th Feb 2008 ***

* Me with Marketing PR Audrey.

* With all the great chefs...

* Me & the sales team.

* Me & Chef Amy.

* Rojak Uncle.

* Chinese Popiah Stall.

* Turkish Kebab in Pita Bread.

* Sushi stall

* Local Delicacies cooked on the spot!

* The grand setting.

* Yummy, yummy! Chocolate Fountain!

* I can stand there forever drinking chocolates...

* Check out the crowd.

* Lion Dance (Got 5 lions in total, stand for 5 Stars...)

* Performances to woo the crowds.

* Amazing Flexibility!!!

* One of the Campus Superstar Contestant

* With the big shot boss of Five Stars (look reluctant to take pic with me -.-)

I'm alive

2008-02-21T15:32:00.003+08:00

Missing in action again, for very good reasons of course. Busy with coming new year and working hard (trying to).

Time realy flies, we are stepping into March soon. My resolutions for this year will be getting my car license & start taking the ballroom dance classes with Kazu.

Will try to update again soon. =)

Year 2008

2008-01-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!!

Had dinner with Kazu & his friends at Clarke Quay Berwerkz, but i fell and landed on my knees while on our way there. Sniff... :( Hope after the fall, year 2008 will be a new brand start and 'heng heng' all the way already. Gambette!!!

* Damage done after the fall... :(

*The spread we had...

* The HuNks *

* My new friend, Lovely Yokie & Skye *

* Best Friend Forever *

* My Other Half (^_^) *

Totally in love

2007-12-30T20:09:00.001+08:00

After Christmas, looking forward to new year with him... ^_^

Xmas Party 2007

2007-12-30T09:11:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS PARTY - 24th DEC 2007

Had Joe, Edwin, Tina, Peanut & Leon over to our place for a simple gathering. We ordered Sushi for the party, thanks to Guanghong for the sponsor of the sushi (^_^) too bad he can't make it as he got assignment to rush. Tina bought BBQ spare ribs, deep fried chicken wings & lotsa tibits.. Too bad they don't have turkey :( will make a mental note to myself to pre-order next year. And i deep fried some nuggets and Kazu took care of the drinks & booze...

We exchanged Xmas presents that night and played games, it was fun! I'm so happy that i got the best Xmas present that night, a BIG Snoopy from Edwin! Hee... I never play cheat when we took turns to draw the present okay! =P

Okay, below are some pics to share for the crazy night we had.. Enjoy!!! =)

* In a better state & mind then... ... *

*Staying in the room for refuge before wild party begins...

See my Snoopy! ^_^

*Leon got pulled in to the fun *

*Punishment for the game... Sushi with alot of gross wasabi, yucks! *

*Edwin got it... *

* Looks like he's in misery... *

*Put up a brave smile for the camera*

*Leon got abit of the punishment too...*

*The guys starting to act weird after the games & booze.. -.- *

* Don't know what is he trying to do...?? *

*Poor bear & piglet.... sniff *

* Okay guys, enough partying... *

*Time to go home for bed*

Happy 24th Birthday

2007-12-26T12:53:00.000+08:00

23rd Dec 2007 ~~ Happy Birthday!!!

Went shopping with Kazu, bought 2 pairs of shoes, a bag, a skirt & shirt, a dress, 2 lingeries.... After that we had dinner at a Japanese restaurant at Great World City, can't remember the name of it though. The food was fantastic compared to other Jap places we've been to... Too bad Kazu is not feeling that day, and was coughing the whole day.. :( Poor Kazu...

*** My Santa Baby ***

** No darling, you can't bring the bear home.. **

** OMG!! Wat u doing!!?? **

** Couldn't get a cab, hopping on this instead **

** Thanks for everything Kazu =D **

** Peek-A-Boo**

** Going back to home sweet home **

Hectic Month

2007-12-17T19:05:00.000+08:00

Been a very extremely and hectic period for me recently, lots of events have happened and i have simply no time to blog. okok.. i admit, have time also too lazy to blog... =P

Last month was Kazu's birthday which we celebrate at this Siloso Beach Resort in this Suite Room with Jacuzzi (romantic & sweet).. Hee... And had a really nice dinner with his relatives the next day, although there's some unforeseen things happened. End of day, it was a lovely gathering to remember but a tiring one..

Last Saturday, i did a birthday/ X'mas gathering with few of my close friends.. Kailee, Jeanne, Jolyn & their partners.. We had lotsa of fun and reasonably good food (esp chilli crab by Kazu, Yummy!) maybe a lack of the booze.. But it was still a very heart-warming gathering, and i loved the presents they gave me.. Just couldn't be better, and i appreciate their pressence on that day. Hope to have more of this kind of gathering in the future to come.. Will try to load some pics of the events above. Take care my dear friends. =)

Yippee

2007-10-15T17:53:00.000+08:00

*** Saw this pic in one of my folder the other day.. Fond memories.. Sweet ^.^
Our trip to the Zoo as friends...

*** We just can't help it by looking awfully happy & silly in the pics.. Wahaha.. ***

(Shalini's Birthday)

More updates

2007-10-12T13:35:00.000+08:00

There's so many October babies among my friends, colleagues, relatives.. OMG!! Been spending alot on the presents.. Haiz. The most important birthday is on the 1st Nov, yep, its Kazu birthday! Prepared to spend a bomb on it, no complaints. Hee. Just find it really hard to keep a secret on what i have planned for him that day. We are going to Sentosa that day and i just couldn't wait! =D Tomorrow will be Kailee & Gab chalet at Pasir Ris, followed by the next day lunch with Kazu's aunt and birthday event at night for my colleague Shalini. I'm looking forward to see her in sari that day, somemore she got to change into 2 costume that day, like wedding like that.. Haha.. Not to forget she's inviting about 100 guests and engaging MC and DJ, wow...

Yesterday, on my way back to office and waiting for the bus. There's this group of kids like primary 1 or 2 getting off the bus. And suddenly this 1 kid just keeps screaming and pointing at people once he got down the bus. I saw 2 ladies in their 30's whom i assume is their teacher having a hard time 'unloading' the kids from the bus. Some of them run into different directions, some got down and sit in the floor and seems to be in a daze, one start to go to the grass patch and plucking the grasses.. Saw their uniform with the print 'MINDS', if i am not wrong its a special school. They all have this kinda look that they are in their own world and having difficulties in listen to instructions. The 2 teachers took a long time to finally get them into 2 crooked lines and there they go for a seems like 'excursion'. At that point of time, i really admire the 2 ladies patience, preserverance, passion to their job and their responsibilities, love and concern they have for these unfortunate kids. Salute to them!~

2007-09-21T10:20:00.000+08:00

My life right now is really in a fairy tale when the prince and princess is now living happily ever after. Last night kazu and me had mooncakes and 'buah lu ku' and watched 'Forest Gump' till 2am plus. It was a really blissful feeling to lean on him and watch the show together, it was just simply 'peaceful'. Although there's times that we 2 may not feel the top of the world and our mood swings can make us seems unreasonable and not sensible at all. But i'm glad that we talked it out some how or another and it did bring us to a different level of our relationship each time.

I think to put yourself in the other party's shoes is very important, which i can relate to how he feels if i do this or said something to him. And not taking each other for granted is crucial too. He's just like my missing part and he completed me. Life is so short and there's so many things to be done, making the best out of my everyday and with him by my side seems so much meaningful in everything i do.

21,900 days to go Kazu san~ Aishiteru!~

Updates

2007-09-17T21:05:00.001+08:00

Some updates...

* Busy, busy, busy... On our way to my cust wedd set up ~

* Still on d line darling....

* Arrgghh.. Took pic of myself...

* Day out for dim sum and some shopping ~~~

* Me and childhood play time cute cousin kelly =)

* Party World with Cousin Kelly & Jas

NDP - Sembawang

2007-08-25T02:19:00.000+08:00

Been really busy recently with the NDP sponsorship events, 7th month prayers, mooncakes festival preparations, weddings... Very productive and glad to see results, already hit my sales target this month of 30k and i'm aiming for 40k. ~Gambatte!

Below are pics of the NDP sponsorship event on 22nd August '07 at Sembawang Country Club which i am fully in-charge. Down from the selection of dishes, deco + set up and making sure the whole operations run smoothly that day. All happened because of my wonderful colleagues too for their help that day on the set up. Cheers! Enjoy the pics i took of some of the performances that day. =D

* (From d left) Me, Ah Bui Kia (Adam), Mama (Sanjay), Newbie (Joshua), GM 'Quack' (Quek), Barely see him (Barry)

* My helping hands...

* Tiger Girls~

* Hard at work~

* Find him familiar???

* Happy with d 'long queue'

* French girl doing d bollywood dance~ Charming d crowd...

* Look at that..!!! ~Speechless

* Oooo...

* Wah...

* Wow...

* He's a happy man

* Check that abs out..!

* Last shot of the babes. Ciao ~

Appreciate kazu for been very supportive and understanding with me during this period time when i may be tired and not feeling my best.

Aishiteru Kazu san~

Frujch

2007-08-13T13:40:00.000+08:00

Event at Frujch (Felicia's 21st Birthday) On 4th August 2007

Was invited to my client Cindy's daughter Felicia 21st Birthday at SMU (Frujch). My company cater the food and i went down earlier to do the set-up.
Luckily Kazu went with me and he's really a big help that night. =D

* Buffet Point

* Joker Driver Yuslan~~~

* Cool wayne chilling~

* My hot date!

Sentosa trip (3rd Month Anniversary)

2007-08-08T12:40:00.000+08:00

29th July 2007
*** 3rd Month Anniversary ***

~ A Day At Sentosa & Underwater World ~

* All excited for the trip!

* So is Kazu Junior!!! =D

* At Vivo, trying to take a nice pic but Kazu not co-operating...

* 2nd try...... Argghhhh...

* Yippeee!!! Perfect!

* Can't open his eyes.. Haha...

* Waiting for the train, 1st time taking it. Excited :)

* D journey begins at the Underwater World now.

* What's that??!!

* Ewww.. Worms..

* Pretty Coral

* Cool Stingray

* Oooo...

* Titanic alike~

* Kissing fish~ Hee..

* At the Beach

* Not forgetting JR...

* Going to take cable car back. ^_^

* End of the day. Sweet and memorable, looking forward to many more months and years to come with you Kazu.

~ Riko Aishiteru Kazu

Enough

2007-08-02T22:06:00.001+08:00

Today is my bro 22nd birthday, went to watch the movie 'Alone' with him. I must admit that it did spook me out a little, i always thought the Thais always do creepy horror movie well.

I was told, time don't tell anything.

Random thoughts running through my mind right now. It seems like, everybody's life is a drama itself. Each one of us have a story to tell, sad, happy, touching, romantic... Looking at my friends the life they lead, sometimes it amuse me. Same thing may happen to someone, but they will have a different reaction to it. To look at the bright side of life always, i remind myself. I guess it does helps to be positive, but pessimistic me always can't help to think negatively at times too. Its like, when one just fall out of love, they listen to sad love songs... Go to the places that they have been to, and do anything they can to remind them of that someone. Strange isn't it? I guess love does makes one go crazy.

You have the power,

To make me really happy.

Somehow, you manage to took my blues away

And took it to paint the beautiful sky above me.

You make me feel that i have the whole world,

Only that i realise,

You are my whole world.

Darling, i must confess that i can't read you like a book.

I am a complete IT idoit too if you have realised,

But i am willing to spend the rest of my life,

Decoding you... ...

Aishiteru Kazu~

Long Blog Ahead

2007-07-30T16:12:00.000+08:00

27th August 2007

Went to Vivo with Kazu after work for dinner at this Superdog and meet up with my sis and her friends to chill at this 'Numbers' pub at boat quay. It was a boring night and my sis had this super 'smelly' face, she claims that she was tired. -.-" Kazu and me self entertained ourselves, i'm glad that Joe came later to join us. Took some pics of him and kazu playing pool again...

* Wah seh... Look so pro~~~

* Joe the Mighty~

* Kazu again~

* On our way to Numbers...

* Act like tourist. Hee...

* Bye bye Vivo

Joe and kazu tried very hard to humor the girls later the night, nope, it didn't work. Age gap??? Haha.. Maybe... Then the beer keeps coming in for the boys, and all thanks to the girls sabotage, Joe went to talk to this funny guy called WAI and told him that i am interested to know him. And he started to sing all these out of tune songs to me and not forgetting to keep throwing flirty glances at me.. Oh boy... *roll eyes so hard until it drops out* Well, at least better than looking and smelly faces? We decided to leave at around 4am, cannot take it already... And i must say i had more fun on my way back home. Look at the pics and you'll know why... =D

* On the cab, Joe in front seat trying out uncle's cool sunglasses...

* See d diff???

* Now he's testing uncle's patience, try on his cap too!~

* Acting cute or cool? ~Uncle cannot tahan him liao..

* Since i can't beat em, join em! Wah liao uncle.. -.-"""

* Family pic 1 (Why only kazu??)

* Family pic 2 (I extra lah...)

* Not to forget, a goodbye kiss with Joe ~Muackz~ Hilarious... haha...

Know him better

2007-07-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

I'm suppose to like 23, today is 23rd but things seems to go all wrong for me today. Was late for work this morning and took a cab, and meeting was long and dreadful, alot of overdue invoices, had Mac again, and lastly my hp was faulty and Kazu couldn't reach me. It's like going one big round and end up we will still meet, fate? I'm looking forward to this Sunday going to Sentosa with Kazu, it will be our 3rd month together. It feels like 3 years that i known him, and i'm definately looking forward to many more years to come.

Recently i keep having flashback of the past, my previous relationships that i had, my childhood, my family, my friends... On what happened and how it affected me. That day i was telling Kazu, my exes say i'm too nice, he replied that its because they couldn't commit into the relationship. So they feel guilty when i treat them nice? Because they can't be sure that they will be nice to me as well? Nevertheless, i will still be nice, hope my prince charming will be too. Time will tell...

Aishiteru Kazu~

Qiao Wei Wedd

2007-07-10T16:59:00.000+08:00

Went for my primary classmate Qiao Wei wedd dinner at Yishun Safra last Sunday. Got home at 3pm to let my sis do up my hair, and she did a wonderful job. I always thought she's very talented in this image thing.~ Hope she would make use of this talent that she has in the future. Will try to post up a pic to let you people see how it looks like. =) Took some vain pics at the wedding also, too bad i can't upload the pics as the camera is not mine but i developed it for my own photo album. Got quite a few compliments from my friends & colleagues, happy happy~ especially to hear it from my darling.

Before the wedding, darling and me went to Ang Mo Kio Hub and he got us a pair of ring and engraved our nick, Kazu & Riko. It was really nice. Sweet!~ After the dinner, we went singing with Jolyn and went back home really late, but had lotsa fun! I think Kazu actually got high & tipsy. He sang especially well that night, bowled me over again, as usual.. Awww... I'm definately gonna treasure what i have now, family, friends.. and importantly Kazu. Thanks my dear friends, never fail to ask me how am i doing and check on my situation now and then. Friends who knows me well enough i guess they should be getting used to me, i still care although i may not show, and appreciate the concerns. (:

Last night, cooked dinner for Kazu & Potato again. First time cooking the cereal prawns, and luckily it turned out quite well, they loved it although i'm not sure if they just wanna make me happy. haha.. I also cooked teriyaki chicken wings and broccoli with assorted mushrooms. I think by now, i'm starting to believe that i can really cook! =P Will try to take pics of my masterpiece in the future~ hee..

* We promised to each other no lies. Aishiteru Kazu san~

HUbby

2007-06-25T20:21:00.000+08:00

Meet up with Kailee, Gab, Jeanne on Sat and went to catch a movie at The Cathay. The movie 'Surf Up' was cute~ and quite hilarious. Had a small episode when the service crew from Cathay stopped us from taking pics at their premises, but manage to keep a couple of pics secretly. Hee...

Before that actually when to sing at Kbox with darling and his bro Weimin and his cute gf Shuman. The tiny tweeny room was freaky cold, although the lunch was quite alrite but i don't think i am going to patronage Kbox again. Shuman was quite shy to sing and Weimin was cracking us up with his attempt of imitating the songs fron Ah Du and Wu Bai. hahahaha... Anyway, the guys went to play billard after that and we girls chatted. Some great view~ i took while darling is playing pool. =P

Opps!~

~ He's killing me softly with this shot...

~ Cute Shuman & Me.. Hee..^_^

Happy Sunday~ Indeed, my weekends with him is just getting better and better. Accidentally left Katsu Jr at home, i think his face must be black now instead of brown. Hahaha.. Miss him sitting at my desk too... We suddenly have the feel to catch a movie in the evening, in fact was 2 movies we watched. Fantastic 4 and Ocean Thirteen, and had our little friendly match of basketball in between. hee..

* If you are Chee Cheong Fun, i wanna be your Sweet Sauce! * Aishiteru Kazu~

Shu Qi

2007-06-20T15:39:00.001+08:00

Home

2007-06-20T10:00:00.000+08:00

Went to the movie premiere "My Wife is a Gangster 3" last night, as my company is the sponsor of the tea reception for 450 guests last night. Shu Qi was the guest of honour, was surprised that she's not that tall but i must say undeniably sexy & saucy somehow. The organiser Evelyn who liased with my he-bitch colleague Stuart, was a lady in her thirties with a very bad temper and practise unprofessionalism. Imagine a service staff could throw his apron on the spot and walked away, she's like yelling at everybody in sight. We actually got this 'Official' tag from their Cathay staff's and she saw us wearing the tag. She immediately yelled at us on the spot and say we are not supposed to wear them and why are we hanging around there!~ Me, someone with class *roll eyes* and also giving my colleague face at the same time just keep quiet and return the tag to her. As if we are very hard up on the movie passes, and even though we are the sponsors, she dun even let us get near the buffet points and insist set up to be done by them. Anyway, i cooled off abit when she seems reasonably polite and informed us the event had started and invite us to help ourselves at the food.

Shu Qi~ She took forever to arrive, and when she arrives her presence on stage was like merely 5 minutes and we proceeded to the theatres already. My colleagues got me popcorn & drink, and i must say the show was really funny i recommended that you should watch it too. Although in the movie Shu Qi didn't really do much, just acting cool and alot of the stunts are carried out by her subsitute stuntsman from what i see... Went home after the movie and it was 10pm + already, didn't really sleep well during the night and keep having weird dreams. Woke up early but yet i'm still late for work and took a cab, haiz...
Cos still take my own sweet time having breakfast and deciding what to wear. haha...

Last Sat, darling's warerobe, chest of drawers and carpet came and his room are really nice now when all the things are put together. Just need some finishing touch now only. I'm very surprised that he gave me a set of his house keys that night, i feel very touched in a way that he actually trust me that much and it somehow bring us to another level in our relationship. Somehow also make me feel secure that i'm part of his life now when i got the space of 1 drawer... Recently was feeling kinda moody and get really sensitive at times, but somehow he always have a way to read my mind.

~Riko aishiteru Kazu~

Confirmation

2007-06-15T22:19:00.000+08:00

At darling place now slacking, he's having a gent's night out today and hope he is having fun as the past few weeks its quite hectic for both me & him. It has been more than 3 months that i have work in Thomson Catering. So far, i like what i am doing and there may be the usual dramas, politics and backstabbing but generally the people there are nice. Nicer, compared to the 'pigs' at CDCS. I got my letter of confirmation today, and a little increment to my surprise. I'm so looking forward to the day that i get my 1st commision. I think i can do better than this, i must admit that i am not working hard enough ya. Gambatte!~

For the past couple of weeks i have been staying at my darling place, which its definately nearer to my work place. By the way my office is at Siglap Drive and i stay in Yishun.. -.-" I like the daily morning going to work together with him, and sometimes have breakfast together. Done a lot of cooking at his place, glad that he got a new fridge now and still waiting for the other accesories to be up.. I love frying~ best! *winkz

Riko aishiteru Kazu~ ^_^

Katsu & Katsu Junior

2007-06-11T23:11:00.000+08:00

If there's no tomorrow, i wanna spend my today with you.

** With Katsu san & Junior ~~

IKEA again `

2007-06-11T23:01:00.000+08:00

* Trip to IKEA again on last sunday!~ Pics taken during our journey there.. Hee.. =)

Katsu Junior~

2007-06-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

Darling got this bear for me during our trip to IKEA, proudly present Katsu Junior!~ ^_^

The missing piece

2007-06-09T20:48:00.000+08:00

~I hope i am the 'missing' piece to complete your puzzle.~

Tipsy him

2007-06-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

Another busy week for me... Fell asleep on the bus on my way home and bumped my head when dozing off, super embarassing... Looking forward to the weekend already. Miss my him. Will bear in mind the 3 important things, Common Goals, Trust, Truthfulness. We'll work very very very very very very hard together okay katsu~! Gambatte!!~ :)

*** Below are pics on 3rd June 2007 ,Sunday =)

Day at Fort Canning

2007-06-05T23:44:00.000+08:00

2007-06-04T20:00:00.000+08:00

Quickie:
Someone is making waves in your life. Luckily, these changes will be for the better.

Overview:
You can love someone and support them and still be in total disagreement. It's pretty amazing to see how far you two have come. With that kind of attitude, there's no telling just where you'll go next

Maybe Blue

2007-06-03T23:53:00.001+08:00

Been kinda lazy and tired to blog recently. Within these few days, things happened. My gf is going through a rough patch with her guy, i hope its really over between them. She definately deserves better and to be treated the right way. But end of the day, its her choice and decision to make,
i just gonna stand by her...

The weekend was hectic, with 2 events on hand, a wedding and a family day. Sat was the wedding at this True Way Presbyterian Church, had to do pre set-up the day before and spend 3 hours there. Tiring, but glad that everything went well on the day. Wedding events are more stressful, as its someone's big day and the most important and happeiest day of their life. I can't afford to have any screw-up, it was really nice to hear from my client's commented that the food is nice. =)

My Mr Shen woke up early in the morning and accompany me to my office first to get my invoices done and then to the church. The weather i must say, its really HOT! It was really sweet of him to follow me everywhere the whole day, and we went to the Queenstown library after the event. It was a really nice experience to go to the library with him to read a book and just chill there. We are definately going there soon and often, it was kinda romantic in a way actually.. hee..

Today was the family day at fort canning, had to wake up even earlier like around 6am.. Darling got us breakfast, prawn noodle before we leave the house. :) We bumped into Joe when passing by the coffeeshop, and so we followed his car to fort canning together. By the way, the event was a project that his partner Ah Beng took and they got me to do the catering. Then again, the weather... SO HOT!!!!!!!!

Thanks for Mr Shen being there with me again, really appreciate his accompany. Everytime he woke up early for me, always touched me. Really, as simple as that. I think he scared that i will get angry if he didn't wake up in time. haha...

The night before, had a talk/ conversation with darling. He talked about stuffs about the past, but always uncertainty about the future which i can totally understand. Don't set any expectation so i won't have disappointment, 'he' once said. Its so much easier to said than done, in the first place should i be listening to that?? There's so many probabilities in life, and yet if you really want something badly maybe determination can help you in here.

Contradicting it may seems. Life is a box of chocolates. I can be as pessimistic as i am, but life is so short, i hope to be looking at the bright side more often and with that 'agar' you by my side.

1st Month!

2007-06-01T23:44:00.000+08:00

*** The 1st Month *** Its just getting better... ^_^

1st Month

2007-06-01T22:37:00.000+08:00

Miss Home

2007-05-28T23:43:00.001+08:00

Missing home after a week stay at my darling's place. Although i'm really happy to be by his side all the time but can't help it feeling abit lonely and really miss my sis. Was so surprised that she misses me too at the same time, haha.. Think we are really connected and bonded in a way. So i decided to go back home on sunday, dropped off my stuffs at home first then went to walk and shop around with Mr Shen.

At times i really feel like i'm someone's wife already, i mean after the shopping trips of furnitures and household things for dunno how many times, not to forget the meals cooking. How not to feel that way? haha.. *Back to reality. Okay, i must tell you people that my appetite for food is really no joke. I'm like eating non-stop that day. Had a full meal at Burger King, then got myself a donut and snicker bar, went to have ice kachang and some mee siau, followed by bubble tea, tibits, then had ban mien at the food court at causeway point. Then went back home had bread again and a can of pepsi. Oh my god!!!~ Mr Shen say he's impressed by me.. wahahaha...

Had sore eye this morning and i'm so grateful about it. Which means i'm taking mc and don't have to attend the dreadful weekly monday meeting. Miss my darling so much.
Ebi aishiteru katsu san~ ^_^

Thanks darling for the chilli crab again, its superb. I don't mind having it every week. *hint hint, winkz~ hee...

*** Below are some pics taken on 27/05/2007 ***

HAPPY SUNDAY~

2007-05-28T23:16:00.000+08:00

Super Busy

2007-05-25T11:11:00.000+08:00

Busy, busy, busy!!! Yet i'm blogging right now during office hours. I believe that blogging actually helps to relieve some stress. Stupid Quek! I have got thousand things on my hand now, and yet he still can keep asking me if i am free.. What d hell @#$%$^&%^!!! My office is so noisy, stupid bangadesh workers doing the telephone lines and what are u looking at!!???
Keep taking glances at me, arrgghhh...

Morning woke up at 5.50am to make sandwiches, luckily was not late for work. And now i'm feeling soooo tired... Last night met up with Kai Lee and had a good chat, and after dinner went to Central Mall for drinks with my darling and Joe. The pub is so boring, the crowds there are the 'uncles' type like that. Called 'Wen' Pub. Good that later the night we played 5 - 10 and was quite fun. I think my Mr Shen starting to lose his touch in 5 - 10. Haha... After that went back his place to cook spaghetti for them. I think i becoming typical housewife already, but somehow i enjoy it. oops.. I don't want to be auntie... haha...

Gaining

2007-05-21T19:58:00.000+08:00

Hectic week for me... Ever since the new GM came, he's not making my life easy. There seems to be thousands of things to do and the way he talks to me make me feel like i'm a small kid. Hello~~ I'm in this business longer than you do here!~ Anyway, tell myself that if i don't die from it, i will grow stronger! =)

red wine

2007-05-19T01:59:00.000+08:00

Had quite a few glasses of red wine with darling..
Getting quite tipsy now, just feel like blogging.
And tell him how much i love him...

Follow up

2007-05-18T19:12:00.000+08:00

These 2 days mood swing again, wanna smack my own head. Arrrgghhh..... It can be so uncontrollable at times, its like someone just put on a pair of sunglasses on me. Everything seems so dull and sad to me, but still trying my very best to be positive and look at the bright side of life. As Mr Shen told me that 'energy' can be passed on, be it positive or negative.. I'm so surprised and impressed by Mr Shen, after that night he talked about the universe, galaxy, stars, black hole... Jeez... He really do his homework, and its seems like all the info its at his finger tips. I still couldn't believe that there's someone in this world who is so like me and would have so many common interests. To found someone finally that i can be at ease with and assured its really difficult, i think its worth the wait...

Was feeling moody the other day, as i had some thoughts about the past. What do i exactly want? In fact, i always thought that i just want to be happy or maybe more? I only can say that i'm a typical capricorn, and so be it. Sometimes, i think i care too much about how people look or think of me or even put their interest before me. Maybe too much.. Learning to care about those who care for me only now.

Yay! Hit 20k for my sales this month, hopefully to reach 30k by the end of the month. Gambatte!~ =)

Married Life

2007-05-16T11:11:00.000+08:00

For the past few days, life's is really a bliss!~ Minus the work stress and mum's nagging... Its really scary that it can be so perfect, i think i deserves to be happy after all the things that i had been thru.

Can i make you d happiest man in the world? * I can hear you asking me define happiness now. haha... ^_^

Curry Chicken

2007-05-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was quite a bad day for my darling... But luckily everything was under control end of the day. =) Cooked dinner for him and his brother, we had curry chicken, vegetables, and this stir fried pork with ginger in dark soya sauce which they like it. Phew... Was so worried the dinner would turned out disastrous, i'm so glad that they finished up the dishes. Hee...

Then went ikea with him to get a coffee table and shelving unit for his kitchen and some other accessories. He assembled everything by night time and it look great! He is very pleased with the coffee table, cos i did give some advice on it so glad that he like it.

Okay, long day for me today... Continue to blog more and put up more pics next week. Below are the pics that day we took when he cooked chilli crab or me and my sis. Sweet!~

Cooking Day

2007-05-12T21:41:00.000+08:00

Poem 1

2007-05-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

Fate, it used to be so far from me & you.

When the line is so clear between me & you.

Never thought that a simple msg of ‘How are u?’

Would end up us having a simple meal.

Now my heart is telling me that, I love u.

I believe that it is fate, that brings me to u…

Perish Paul

2007-05-05T09:41:00.000+08:00

In the world of love,

No such thing as

Who's right & wrong?

Who let each other down?

There's only,

Not cherishing each other existence.

*****************************************

Friday, it started with me late again for work. So much for the challenge... Haiz, cos the night before i went through some stuffs and was really troubled and didn't sleep well at all. Because i'm the type to keep problems to myself and won't tell anyone especially my loved ones, sometimes its suffocating. But i don't think i will change this bad habit of mine anytime soon, so the best thing to do is maybe to let me be. Glad to have my slibings around me, my bro was quite a big help this time and not to forget my sis. I need the morale support from them. Thanks Mr Shen for his 'agaring' too, he always brighten up my day with that. =) Luckily i manage to get a solution for my problem in the late noon, at least a load is taken away from my chest. Still, the problem is still not solve yet unless i carry out my plans.
Self-disciplined.

My sis very cute one, go and her put her display msg on msn say she wants to eat chilli crab too on sunday! haha.. I saw it and told Mr Shen about it, and as d usual Mr Nice Guy he is, of cos he invited her too. haha.. Seems like my sis is even more excited than i am. My dear sis is troubled, by someone. I don't understand why people want to play games and waste time? Or is it me? That i always rush things? But not as if we live forever, and life is really so short! And moreover we are only young once, so why the mind guessing and all? Admit if you don't have the guts, then don't regret in the end if its too late for anything. It can be so simple and easy then what you think. And you will be glad that you made the move in the first place and you will be wondering why you didn't do so earlier? If it doesn't work out, move on, 'he/she' may be waiting for you at the next stop.

1st time

2007-05-02T19:39:00.000+08:00

Went to Mr Shen place yesterday, as he was not feeling his best. He's staying together with his younger brother and the place really look like a bachelor's pad. haha... Very chocolately, just like him.. hee.. I thought that his brother don't really look like him, hmm.. or maybe its the glasses.. Anyway i went straight to work from his place this morning, and he dropped me off at my office first. Sweet. Minus the fact the cabby uncle was babbling thru out the journey and was kinda turn-off. Haha..

Was late again, haiz, gonna give myself a challenge... I'm not going to be late for the rest of the month! Yep! =) JIA YOU! Then the day started off very productive, and the fact that i have to complete everything urgent on hand before my lap top batt dies off was another challenging task. Luckily everything went smooth and make my way back around 2.30pm. Yawns... Tomorrow its another long day for me, in fact the whole week would be. And out of no reason, i started to feel that i really love this job that i am doing. Or this company that i am in right now, the bosses may be naggy but its normal. At least their hearts are really good and can tell that they are really nice people. Hope i won't let them down too, gonna start to work out my plans. Things are kinda messy right now, what to do first and what to do next. Can't be taking things as they come all the time, gonna do what i do best. Making plans. Fulfilling them is another story.
Gambatte! ^_^

Aww... I love my him. I feel like a schoolgirl at times... hee... =) Looking forward to my chilli crab on Sunday! Woohoo!!!

Lovely Monday

2007-05-01T01:08:00.000+08:00

Just like Mr Shen says, its a lovely monday. Although i woke up late in the morning and was late for work by 3 minutes, not to forget i nearly fainted on the train to work + nearly got choked on my char siew pau... haha.. its still as lovely as it is. =P My day was hectic in the morning, invoices to do, quotations to send, doing confirmations... Was quite productive, plus the fact that i was beaming the whole day. Looking very forward to meet Mr Shen for dinner, having Pizza Hut at Causeway Point. =)

Poor Mr Shen suddenly don't feel very well and can see that he looked kinda pale and quiet too... Well, at least he still has the appetite to finish his meal so its not that serious i guess. hee.. If 1 day he really has no appetite for food, think i'm gonna call 995 already.. haha.. oops! Went to get him some herbal tea halfway thru the dinner and hope its helps though. Silly him actually tell me that he feels strange about the way i treated him. Hmmm.... Anyway, i'm just touched that he appreciate it and everything seems to be worthwhile.

That's good enough for me. =)

Horoscope

2007-04-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

Capricorn & Scorpio

When Scorpio and Capricorn make a love match, they get an opportunity to not only enjoy a loving relationship and learn the value of being a pair, but also to grow and mature as individuals. These two may be wary about sharing themselves with one another at first, and this emotional caution may dampen the initial impact of this relationship. These two tend to be a bit cautious (Capricorn) and pensive (Scorpio), and it takes a while for them to feel comfortable with a significant other. Though they may be shy of getting involved and not the quickest to trust and share, these two Signs will discover that they can have quite a profound connection -- one of friendship and deep loyalty.

Much can be learned when a Scorpio and Capricorn get together -- and the lessons they learn, while difficult at times to endure, are worth the trouble they might cause. From their stable, capable Capricorn mate, Scorpio can learn to bring their overheated emotions into control. Capricorn must be careful, though, not to seem too emotionally shallow when leveling any criticism on their sensitive love. Detached comments can backfire with Scorpios: They desire depth, intense feeling and the utmost in sincerity in all situations -- most especially in love! Capricorn, so busy with achieving and with how others perceive them sometimes fails to take a chance with their emotions. From Scorpio, Capricorn will learn the value of looking below the surface of things, the rich pleasure that can come from deeply knowing another person. Both Signs share a love of committing to a task. If they decide a relationship is their next big goal to attain, there's no stopping these two.

The Planets Mars and Pluto rule Scorpio, and the Planet Saturn rules Capricorn. Mars and Pluto represent aggression, courage, sexual energy, rebirth and renewal. Saturn teaches the great lessons in life -- hard work, diligence, ambition and responsibility. These three Planets can combine in the Signs to form an industrious union bound by Scorpio's fierce emotion and Capricorn's ambitious action. This is a dynamic team for business, sure, but they all that achieving energy could translate well to affection and love.

Scorpio is a Water Sign, and Capricorn is an Earth Sign. Earth Signs are all about practical matters, about material possessions. What a good balance, then, for those of the Water element. Water Signs mold to the shape of the situation they're in and often respond with emotion rather than logic. A match-up of Capricorn's goal-oriented stability and Scorpio's exciting mutability makes for quiet a team -- whether they translate to love depends on whether love is their goal. If it is, expect success.

Scorpio is a Fixed Sign, and Capricorn is a Cardinal Sign. They may not seem the most romantic Sign of the Zodiac, but a Capricorn's business and planning savvy could certainly be put to good use in devising elegant, well-planned nights of romance. If their Capricorn partner shows that much initiative, Scorpio will enthusiastically follow along, excitedly, if not a bit smugly, throwing in their own ideas, too. Scorpio can toss out some barbed comments under their breath or in such a sexy tone of voice that Capricorn might not even notice. A love-minded Sea Goat would do well to listen closely for subtle shades and nuances in their Scorpio partner's voice and pay special attention to body language as well. Both Signs can be stubborn, and this could lead to some potential conflict. Also, Scorpio falls hard, emotionally involving themselves almost to the point of no return, in stark contrast to the sometimes-distant Sea Goat. Both partners must recognize this and accept it if the relationship is to be successful.

What's the best thing about the Scorpio-Capricorn love match? Their determination toward shared ideas and their strong devotion to one another. They can open doors to one another's souls and show one another new ways of perceiving and feeling.

2007-04-29T20:26:00.000+08:00

He says he likes his back view... Haha...

2007-04-29T20:21:00.000+08:00

But i like his side view too... Heehee...

A piece of my mind

2007-04-29T19:39:00.000+08:00

29th April 2007

Last night went to Dblo again... Initially its because Jolyn keep asking me to go as she is going for someone's birthday party there. After some determined persuasion by her, i promised her to go and i asked Mr Shen along too. Was so surprised that he actually agreed to join me! Haha... End up i informed my usual kakis that i'm going to Dblo, and at the very last minute Jolyn put aeroplane on me! I was fuming mad, as i was planning to spend a non-clubing weekend one. Haiz, but i already told everyone that i am going so no choice, too late to back out now.

It was a crazy night, at least for me. I couldn't believe what i saw. Make me see things much clearer now, like Mr Shen says, why care about those people who don't care about you..? Sirene and the gals asked me to cheer up, she said she's already getting used to it. I think i deserves better. Went back to Mr Agar Agar at least he always makes me feel better. And i started to have all the shots and pops, until i lost count, and somemore with an empty stomach. Then i remembered that i started to puke like there's no tomorrow halfway through the night. Thanks for the gal friends & poor Mr Shen to help me and send me back.

Okay. At least there is 1 good & happy thing that happened. I'm taken... Hee... Appreciate the 'confirmation chop' Mr Shen, cos it may be silly. But it does matters to me alot, it makes me feel assured somehow. I cannot take 'probation' anymore, i mean what the hell is that?

Sweet... ^_^

29/04/2007 Pics

2007-04-29T19:30:00.000+08:00

*** Camwhoring before heading to Dblo ***

Tired

2007-04-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

Aloha! Sorry that been too tired and busy to update my blog. Hee.. The zoo trip was GREAT! Just that had a few 'episode' happened and things didn't really turns out as i planned to be. But still it was enjoyable. Took alot of pics, BUT due to some 'reason' i need to do some editing before i can post the pics up.
Haha.. Only heavens know & Mr Shen.. LOL..

After the zoo, had to rush back home for 2nd round.. Dblo..
Okok.. Me post some pics first, will tell more details about the day the next time i blog. Hopefully 'zoo pics' will be ready then.
Take care friends... =)

DblO

2007-04-24T20:34:00.000+08:00

2007-04-19T18:46:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Paul! Heard from the gals that someone never get 'carry out' of DblO last night. I'm so surprised... :P
Hope you stay happy always! >.<

jasper 1

2007-04-19T18:17:00.000+08:00

Hihi! Came back home early today, office was so 'stuffy' and i'm so bored staying in. I think i am getting quite comfortable of being an outdoor salesperson already. Anyway, my day was quite productive, went down to Jurong Island again and make contact with this regular customer. Good job.

Okay, as what i have promised... Going to blog what Jasper had done that touched my heart. Sweet memories... Have you gals ever hate it so much when you have a bf who is so into online gaming? Oh well, i remembered this period of time that he's into this online gaming. He can played the game till 3-4am while having to wake up at 7am for work. Every night i would actually wait up for him on bed and watched him play his game across the room. Even with me frowning at him and watched him, he just refuse to stop playing and go to bed early! I gave up and fell asleep eventually every night, and this lasted for about 3 weeks. Until the day, my birthday, i know why... I got a big box of 'stars' from him. He has been folding all these 'stars' for me all these nights, as he can't do it in office. And because i'm staying at his place at that period of time, he actually 'play his game' till i fell asleep and start the folding... That's not it yet, he asked me to count the 'stars' as he said there's a meaning to it on the number of 'stars'. I started to count... 87, 88, 89... then i saw this blue 'thing' stucking out. Its a watch. Words cannot describe how i feel at that point of time. And i may not look as excited or happy as i am feeling then. But i'm really, really touched.. How not to? Sweet!~
* To be continued...

Nothing much to do... I'm thinking what to wear to Dblo on Sat.. hmmm..

Dream Car.. Not anymore soon

2007-04-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

BMW M6 Coupe

Even better

2007-04-17T22:31:00.000+08:00

Yay! Had my monthly 'Must' meal at Creation Cafe, with Mr Shen for dinner. All thanks to Kelvin, my day was quite smooth. Kelvin just came back from Taiwan and as i promised we had lunch today. But i got an appt at Tuas at 2.30pm, luckily for me and being the Mr Nice him i got a ride from him to my destination. Hee... The client i meet up with was a cheeky indian guy.. arrgghhh... Anyway, meeting went smooth and Mr Nice actually waited for me and send me back to Bugis. =) I walked around while waiting for Mr Shen to finish his meeting and have dinner, so in meanwhile i go say hi to Ley the funny guy at Espirt... Gonna arrange a KTV session with him again next week as we were chatting, anyone wanna join?? Either Mon or Thurs...
U know who to call ya. ^_^

The Chocolate Factory gang has been asking me to go join them for coffee recently. Been told that someone is upset that i'm not there. But that's not what my heart is telling me. Anything wrong that i'm following my heart here? Unless you prove me wrong...

Looking so forward to Sat... We're going to the ZOO! Hurray! =)

Getting better

2007-04-14T23:37:00.000+08:00

Went to meet.. erm.. okok.. Not calling him Porky Shen anymore.. :P Had Mac breakfast with Mr Shen at Toa Payoh before the KTV session. End up only 2 of his colleagues turned up for the KTV. Bluff me one... -.-" Okay la, which means we get to sing more songs. haha.. After that we all walked abit and watched 'Meet The Robinson', nice show. :) Maybe its kinda hard to believe, but we did went to the library. Yes, i said 'LIBRARY'... Just drooling over the pics of the cookbook basically.. lol. It's like eating non-stop the whole day, and my sis take forever to come. Finally, meet up my sis around 7pm+ and walked around A.M.K Hub then back to Yishun Northpoint. Ok, i confess! Had Mac again.. arrgghh... Then we decided to walk back home, gonna burn some calories la...

So surprised to see Chocolate Factory Charlie while i'm on the train in the morning, its like 'fate'? haha.. Anyway, everytime i see him its like.. Aww.... Such a tall Doreamon! Check out the dimples... I wonder how many gals fall for that?? =P

It's getting better... ...

* Vain Pics Below*

Vain Pics

2007-04-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

2007-04-13T21:37:00.000+08:00

Thoughts

2007-04-13T20:45:00.000+08:00

Friday 13th. Woke up late, jumped up at 7.20am when i have to be at Kembagan Mrt by 8.30am. Somemore last night was too lazy to wash up before i sleep, eww.. *i know* Took a really quick shower and rushed out of the house by 7.50am and took a cab. Arrrgghhh... Luckily the traffic was quite smooth and manage to reach there by 8.20am and got myself breakfast. :) Was lost in Jurong Island with my driver, boss kept calling and making noise about it. Luckily we make it in time and finally meet up with Tommy. Nice chap, keep asking me to 'da bao' food back to office. Hee...

Poor Arnee, was told that her bf dropped the bomb. Saying that his parents want them to stop seeing each other, i thought that was a lame excuse. After a year plus then now his parents object?? Anyway, i will be update on Monday after they have a good talk first.

Drama. Life's is such a drama. They don't like it when their lives are smooth sailing... Strange. Maybe thats how we are able to appreciate the finer things in life?

This is what u want and i hope u are doing well and happy.

KTV session tomorrow with Porky Shen and his colleagues.. Yoohoo!~ I feel kinda thick-skinned to join them actually. Haha.. Nah.. Think i will be shy tomorrow when i see them.. Hee...

Number 23

2007-04-13T00:30:00.000+08:00

Just came back not long ago.. Super duper tired! Have not been sleeping for the past 2 days...

Went to watch a movie earlier, Number 23. Hmm... I still love that number cos its my birth date. Ha! Porky shen was so much better today, maybe because he's not 'hungry' i guess.. LOL! Have to go Jurong Island in the morning by 8.30am, better go to bed now. Nitey!

Keeping my spirit up!

Moving On

2007-04-11T06:13:00.000+08:00

Moving on... ...

There's a wonderful feeling of liberation that you get when you don't care what anyone thinks about you -- so why are you worried about seeming perfect? The stress caused by always trying to dress the right way, say the right thing and be the right kind of person takes a lot of energy out of you. To really start feeling good, give up the useless quest for perfection. Let yourself do what feels right, and you will become the kind of person you can be proud of.

Love can be so beautiful

2007-04-10T12:06:00.000+08:00

这是你离开的第三个星期六
面包我吃了两口
啤酒还剩半升
香烟我还是一包接一包地抽
你搬走了以后
我还会常常在你住的公寓底下等你下楼

现在是凌晨三点钟
喝了点酒头有点痛
寂寞的烟点燃空虚的夜
暂时把心放空
你晾的床单忘了收
没烫的衬衫有点皱
明天开始我将如何面对
没有你的以后

那些美好的画面反复在播送
但心破碎了之后要怎么去拼凑
Baby baby love can be so beautiful
只怪那一刻话说得太重
所有的情节都失控

Baby baby love should be so beautiful
你给的太多现在我才懂
只有烟和酒陪伴的凌晨三点钟

现在是凌晨三点钟
喝了点酒头有点痛
你晾的床单忘了收
没烫的衬衫有点皱
明天开始我将如何面对
没有你的以后

凌乱的房间里头
还留着你的香味
怎么也戒不掉你独特的笑容
如果时钟倒着走
我不会再让你走
有些事情要绝望到底才能看得透

Giving up

2007-04-09T20:20:00.000+08:00

I gave up... Don't wanna try anymore.

Went ktv session with Wayne and Joe yesterday, we sang till our voices broke. haha.. It was sure fun to hang out with them, enjoyed myself. :) After that we went to Maxwell Market for, erm.. so called dinner.. wahaha.. We had hokkien mee, chicken porridge, bak kut teh, chee cheong fun, siew mai, har kow, sugarcane drink... Halfway thru i'm like so sleepy already.. Haha.. As usual, they went for a 2nd round of drinking session. I cannot make it already so i went back home and knocked out.
Nice sunday. ^_^

I had enough!

2007-04-07T07:55:00.000+08:00

Can't sleep...

Don't treat me like a spare tyre, cos i'm ain't one.

Dblo tonight with my sis.. Yoohoo..! :)

Happy go lucky

2007-04-04T19:59:00.000+08:00

Happy can really go lucky??? Been trying to keep my spirit high and mood good recently ya. So far so good, and certainly people feel happier to talk to me too. :P But at times just can't help to feel abit moody. Here we go again.. hahaha.. But its really nice to see and hear about some really sweet and happy love story from some friends. True love still exists right? Its inspiring to see 2 people to be so in love with each other. SWEET! Okok, hoping mine is coming real soon ya. *fingers crossed

Wish me luck! Staying Chirpy! ^_^ Hee...

ocean deep

2007-03-31T11:43:00.000+08:00

I thought you were my angel,
Sent from heaven's sky.
I thanked God for your presence,
But now I wonder why.
You took your bow and arrow,
And aimed it at my heart.
You let it rip right through my soul,
And left me torn apart.
I started to wonder what went wrong.
I love'd you without fail.
But above all else I figured out,
You're just a typical male.

I don't believe it

2007-03-31T00:16:00.000+08:00

My mum sure have her own ways to console people. Seeing how down i am now she told me this, "What's wrong with you? Aiyah, relationship this thing cannot force one.. I read that this year your love luck not good ar." Thanks mum.. -_-"

I'm not sure to go dblo tomorrow anot? After put in so much effort of getting 'him' out of my life, tomorrow may have a high chance of seeing there. Not sure if i want to take the risk, of how i will react when i see him. Staying at home also dwell on it, and my friends encourage me to go out and have fun. Oh well, i shall see how i feel again.

Was packing some of my stuffs earlier and found this bag of stuffs. Its my memories of Jasper. There's my diary, photos with him, letters, cards, bears, reciepts, chocolate boxes, paper stars, ribbons.. Almost everything he gave me. At that moment, i realised that this guy who is making me sad now doesn't deserves it. He doesn't derserves me to be upset, hurt and sad for him. I can see Jasper patience towards me and there's always surprises, and of cos lots of tender loving care. He really put in alot of efforts to make me happy and feel loved all the while. I think if i got to know him now, he will be happier and we will be together still. Maybe its unfair to compare Paul with Jasper in the first place. Cos i'm with Jasper for a much much longer time. But the same thing happened to me and Jasper before at the initial stage of the relationship. Its my doubts and insecurities, but what he have done is assure me and be patient with me.

I will blog again more on what Jasper have done, it will serves as reminder that i derserves better, but not dwelling on the past...

All over

2007-03-30T19:49:00.000+08:00

Feeling very confused right now, getting him out of my life. Hope time can bring me back to who i am before i got to know him.

It's all over...

Forgive & forget

2007-03-30T11:56:00.000+08:00

Forget about us, forget about him, forget about me...

depression

2007-03-29T17:17:00.000+08:00

Feeling very depressed right now, i feel that nobody in this world really care about how i feel and what i think. They are all selfish bastard and think about themselves only. Why am i always so considerate about ppl's feelings? I am so stupid.

I also want to be happy. Be friends? Bullshit! I feel that its easier to be angry and hate him, cos its less painful this way. Can someone bring my pain away? Feel like going somewhere alone, i want to shout outloud and cry outloud. Keep telling myself that its okay, time will heal... But why the hell is it taking so long and slow.

I want to be left alone, run away and hide somewhere. Let me rest in peace. You can be so cruel.

still sad

2007-03-29T02:33:00.000+08:00

Just reached home... Went to have drinks and chill with Joe and gang, surprising Wayne also just broke up with his gf yesterday. We all are like mourning for some one, we just drink blindly and talk about our thinking and feelings. They actually did talk some senses into me and i'm trying my best to cheer up.
How i wish its as easy as ABC and 123...

Sad

2007-03-28T13:19:00.000+08:00

Would you remember how we first meet,

and remember how we first speak?

Would you remember my first question to you,

and how you kiss like there's no one around you...

Would you remember the laughter that we shared,

and at night the blanket that we both shared...

I hope you would remember my face and my voice,

cos i know that you have your reasons to make this choice.

This is to let you know how hurt and sad that i am,

but end of the day i just want you to be happier than i am.

I realised that the ocean is deeper than i thought.

rain on me

2007-03-27T22:45:00.001+08:00

Had a long walk earlier, hoping that the rain would clear my mind and wash away all my troubles and doubts.
I can see it coming...

Just had a talk with him, i'm not happy at all that my prediction came true. At least i'm proud of him that he can finally made a decision. Some part of me died on the spot, tears blind my eyes and i think i should go to bed now.

monday blues

2007-03-26T17:32:00.000+08:00

Who can know you better besides you yourself?

My monday is so blue today, as blue as the ocean can be.

******************************

What am i looking for i ask myself,

Someone who can love me more than myself...

Someone who don't let me wait,

And only look at my way...

Someone who can hold my hand and make my day,

When things ain't fine he won't just run away...

Someone who won't make me look desperate for his love,

Cos i would just be his only love...

Someone who won't tell me not to think too much,

As i'm in love with you i will be thinking as much...

Someone who don't make me feel that i'm taken for granted,

Because i really love to feel wanted...

Lazy to blog

2007-03-22T13:13:00.000+08:00

In fact, i'm really lazy to blog now. I got work to do but feeling really lazy, and yet i have to stop myself from dozing off at my table. So i choose to blog then. -.-

It has been a month with my guy, and i did something that i thought is really sweet on 20th. This is what i did, i woke up at 5am in the morning washed up and got out of the house by 6am. Took a cab to the coffeeshop which sells my dear's favourite fried mee and chicken wings. And to play safe i bought him 'chee cheong fun' and soya bean drink too.

Then i took train to Ang Mo Kio and walked to his place. I was downstair at his block by 6.45am, and as i planned i hooked the 'breakfast' on his bike handle and took out the card that i prepared the night before and shoved it into the key slot. I began to find a place to hide and 'look out' for the breakfast and the card don't get blown away, at the same time make sure he don't see me. Finally found my perfect spot, and i cursed the weather for being so warm and can't stop perspiring. arrgghh...

The time now is 7.05am, i gave him a msg to make sure he is up for work. 7.15am he make his way down and walked towards his bike, saw his took the card and i quickly make a move. He called me almost immediately, i think he's really surprised and touched.. Hee... I think i can fall in love with myself already, cos i'm such a romantic i must say.. :P

It was Leon's birthday yesterday, as planned we went to Sakae Sushi for dinner and i went to gt my hair cut. My fringe was like too short. :( And i look so silly with it... Hope it grow long soon...
I appreciate my dear that he make the effort to communicate with my sliblings, as they really meant alot to me. Actually he make it look effortless, anyway, i really do appreciate it.
Love him lots. ^_^

How long will you love me?

Happy weekend

2007-03-19T11:16:00.000+08:00

Had a really nice weekend. :) On last sat was Desmond R.O.M at Spans JOMS Clubhouse at Ah Hood Road. Was nearly late but luckily we still make it in time for the solemnization. My dear was so charming and i was shocked to see him in shirt and pants. LOL.. Aww.. He still manage to make my heart missed a beat at times.. hehe.. Took quite a lot of pics with Mr Wong, ex-colleagues and friends there and of cos i really helped myself to the food and drinks there. ha.. Surprised to see Zhiqiang there, he's Sinni ex bf and it really brings back memories. He's actually Desmond's cousin bf, i tink he changed quite a bit, maybe because he is older now and more mature too.

We left at around 9pm to DblO.. Yes, DblO again.. Had beer and played games with my dear, after a while his friend JW came and joined us. JW is also 1 of my Primary schoolmates, i dont really know him well at all and in fact i never spoke to him before. Was surprised that he's touchy to me even with my dear there. And my impression of him got even worse when he try to 'shake' me at the dance floor. Lucky for William is there and shoved him away, my dear was MIA and i got to know later that he has been running to the toilet. Then took alot of pics again with Serene and some Primary school friends again. It was fun taking the pics. HA! Will try to upload some in the future. I think its time for me to get a camera, since i like taking pics and so is my dear.. :P

My poor sis finally end it with Daryl. I don't what to say, cos initially i actually encourage my sis to get into this relationship with him. But i didn't know that things would end up like this, little that i thought the virtues can actually becomes the flaws. Maybe he's not mature enough, anyway time did tell how that person's character is. I just hope my sis would be happy, and obviously she isn't when she's with him. Love u lots sis! :)

I'm so proud of myself! Hee.. Its like donkey years since i stepped into the kitchen and cook, although i used to cook pretty often during secondary school days. I must say i still can make a decent meal. haha.. It may not be very nice but my dear, his grandpa and his aunt was very supportive and kind enough to eat it and never really complain about it. :P Must remember tat his grandpa can't take sweet stuffs. After the cooking i went to meet up with a customer staying at serangoon garden way and make a deal. Thanks my dear for sending me there, then we went back to have dinner again. I was really dead beat tired after the cooking, and don't really have much appetite. Around 9pm+ we went back to my place and i knocked out around 12am i guess. It was a long, tired but happy weekend...

Was quite touched to see the couple say ' i do' at the solemnization. I still believe true love still exixts, although i have seen alot of failed and unhappy marriage...

Love does not makes the world goes round; love is what makes the ride worthwhile.

Auntie

2007-03-14T09:56:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure why my mood swings are getting scary recently. Is it because i'm attached? Stress of my new job? Change of sleeping patterns? Oh well, i just feel that i'm getting very sensitive nowadays and really pessimistic about alot of stuffs. Maybe i know the answer now, cos i am a woman. HA!

Am i setting expectations? If i do, i think its pretty reasonable. I thought its quite rude to tell people straight at their face their mistakes sometimes, or wat you expect of them which makes one seems demanding. For me, what i do is i keep scores. I wil deduct the points in my heart secretly then i will just walk away once u hit negative. I believe alot of stuffs have to be earn, somtimes you won't even realise it.

Little things that you do can goes a long way... ...